| TECBC 06' was blessing in every possible way you can imagine.
This retreat wasn't about the temporary spiritual high or any of that feeling great stuff. It was about reminders and overviews on what I already knew.
Before and during the conference, I felt no emotions what so ever. I felt empty and blank. I knew the facts and had the knowledges of the Lord and His word, and I even respect who He is and everything He has and still is doing for us. But what i realized was that I didn't have that close loving bond between me and Jesus. I prayed and worshiped for Him to enter my heart and all, but it just wouldn't happen. My boys, Calvin, Lester, and Alvin, and also couple of my praise team buddies, Mat (with 1 T) and Sunroot had long talks about our faith and such. Well, the 3 boys and I talked about what we've been feeling, going through, and everything. The funny thing was that we ALL have been going through the same exact things and felt the same exact things. We prayed and discussed everything hoping that we would find answers. After our talk, we had JAMS and Prayer / Praise night. As praise night was ending, something hit me. I realized that God was putting me and my brothers in the blankness situation because that's how we would be feeling after that "week of feeling high" and we would go back to our old selves. He allowed us to realize it on our own, that blind faith, blind hope, and blind love for God will pull us through the good and the bad times. It is up to us to make the choice to always depend on God and believe in Him even though we don't feel like it or we are going through discouraging times. God already did His part in the beginning of our relationship when He called onto us and adopted us as his sons. But as our relationship continues, it is up to us to take the step towards Him and have that blind hope and faith. When I shared that with my boys and continued to praise, after a while, God opened my heart and filled me with the holy spirit, and gave me confidence, strength, and hope to move on.
I realized that this conference wasn't about learning new things or to feel the holy spirit for a week or 2. It was about taking what we know, grow our blind hope/faith and apply it in our lives. Lead the world as Christians and glorify His name.
so... that was all of the serious stuff that i just wrote... but now the shout outs :)
The Boys.
Calvin - my brother-in-law.
Alvin - man who keeps women in line.
Lester - my son-in-law.
Brendon - my baby son.
The Girls
Nicolette - you'll always be my boo <3
Stacy - I'll grow out my arm hairs, just for you.
Sharon - your laughter puts smile on my face :)
Natalie - I did take your name tag, haha I'm sorryy.
Vanessa - Our love will never perish.
Lizz - baller. (haven't forgot about you)
Praise Team
Steve - I'll always be your sunshine.
Mat (1 T) - Eat your food you fat lard.
Sunroot - sexiest man with a base guitar i know.
Mike Zhou - my sleeping/ drumming/ ivana sharing buddy.
Danielle - my sister-in-law.
Kat - you can always call for a good time :)
Ivana - manliest woman i know, who i can have deep conversation with.
Cabin: Star Fruit
Steve Ng - check mate.
Justin Jew - the coolest Jew i know, lol.
Ivan - the chillest and the illest.
Vincent - man with a killer smile.
Jimmy - a Gift from God.
* If I left you out, please understand that I have a bad memory. soo let me know and i'll definately give you a shout out. You know i love ya'll <3
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